Monday, 15 June 2009


So I know I haven't blogged much lately and I'm not making my writing quota and all that, although I may be more or less on target for June. Whatever. In this case, I have an excuse...

Yesterday, rather than do my semi-usual Sunday blog, I sat down and started writing what I am hoping I can turn into a book. I don't know if it's too early to say anything yet or whatever, but I was really inspired last year with everyone's participation in NaNoWriMo and thought to myself "You know, it doesn't seem that hard! I could do that!"

Anyway, my problem has always been that, while I think my writing skills are on par with most writers, my inspiration levels are very low. Write a song, and essay or a short story? No problem! Try and write something that goes past 3000 words? HARD AS HELL! Maybe it's my attention span or whatever, but I just have a hard time coming to terms with that much writing. That being said, I finally decided that looking at writing this way just sabotages my efforts. I also tend to hurt myself by wanting to have an entire novel planned in my head before word one goes on paper. While some writers actually do this, I think it's too forbidding. Makes it seem like work, which it shouldn't be. I write to entertain myself, so why shouldn't I just start? If I write myself into a corner, who cares?

So like I said, after reading what various people did last year for the aforementioned NaNoWriMo I was fairly inspired. The thought of 30,000 words is intimidating but the thought of 1000 words a day is not. And I don't even have to be that good. I am setting myself a target of 500 words a day over 2 months. So far I'm already past that, but of course it's only been 2 days, so whatever.

I also have help in that I have a volunteer that will let me read her what I've written and seems interested in forcing me to continue if I lose motivation. If anyone can do it, she can.

Flattery last night when she heard what I wrote on the first day....and I quote "Wow you can actually write like that?"

She meant it in a good way! least, that's how I'll take it!

Anyway so if this blog doesn't get updated that often, it's because my writing energies are getting sucked into this new universe I'm creating. Perhaps when I've got a few thousand more words under my belt I'll post an excerpt. Wish me luck!

Sunday, 7 June 2009

Shiny Monsters

Feel the need to cut off all my dead parts
dead nails
...............dead skin
dead hair
...............dead heart
to grow all new parts just for you
and be the man I wanted to

Need something bad to say about you
to make me feel I'm good enough too
something I can pick apart
so I won't have to grow a new heart

pretty girl still lies in my bed
crazy thoughts still run through my head
"I think I'm dumb or maybe just happy"
Now I understand what he said

Commitment to a greater cause
ignore their foolish natural laws
fight them 'till we fall apart
or glue together shattered hearts
a happy cancer to feast on
a growing gift to dwell upon
I'll be whatever I need to
I'll wear a mask so I'll keep you

but you don't ask it
happy love
you don't need change to rise above
you'll just see through
my quick disguise
and know me when I try to hide

So what can I conspire to do
except perhaps to tell it true
and live the way I wanted to
and hope that it's enough for you

I never thought I might be good enough for you

laughing mobster
steal my breath
happy monster
chew my death
lick the blood
off of my heart
shiny monster
never part

do anything so I can think I'm good enough for you.

Monday, 1 June 2009

June Babbles On

So June is here....Today I wore a sweater and a jacket and the wind coming in felt more like October. What's up with that?

Anyway, I don't have much to say today, but I feel bad that I only completed 50% of my target blogs for the month of May and thus I better get June off to a better start! Unfortunately, I really have little idea of what to talk about right now.

Well, how about some quotes from the month of May....try and figure out who said what. If I paraphrase, well....too bad....

"My day was....ultimately...lazy!"

"Index finger, middle finger, ring finger, pinkie finger....Index finger, middle finger...what? Shhhh....shutup!!! ring finger, middle finger...."

"Thanks tips!"

"You gotta watch Religulous...and take notes!"

"I knew you were watching Dogma as soon as I came in because I saw Alan Rickman's fake crotch"

Okay enough of that....I actually had considered talking about religion, having watched both Dogma and Religulous in the last month, and perhaps I still will, but I just don't have the energy right now. I spent most of the evening clearing out my bedroom and living room because they're spraying my apartment for bed bugs tomorrow. I was kind of suprised. I always thought bed bugs were just things made up for fantasy novels, or perhaps that they used to exist in olden times but have long since been extinct. Well, apparently not. Ain't life grand?

Oh well, all in all it's been a good month. Although good months leave me little to talk about it would seem! Perhaps I can find a happy medium for June....

Oh that reminds me....Why did 3 of the 4 summer movies I wanted to see come out in May? I saw them all....Wolverine, Star Trek and Terminator: Salvation. Star Trek was by far the best, which is shocking as it was the one I was least interested in. The others were cool too, though...I don't know why everyone was complaining about them. Anyway, the problem is that now I only really want to see Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen for the rest of the summer, and it isn't even super-hot-escape-to-the-theater weather yet! What's up with that? Is May the new July?

Okay, so I'm babbling. Whatever...I'll analyze something or write a weird poem or something next time. Maybe. Have a nice June!

Oh one final note...apparently it was 42 years ago today that Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band was released. Go listen to it right now!