M.I.A.

What a pain in the ass it's been to start writing this blog today.  I don't know...I'm not particularly motivated or inspired lately and so I am starting to feel like I am just going through the motions.  This of course happening at the same time that I'd like to start gearing up to work on some larger writing and creative projects...and yet, when I manage to find a little time to actually start working, I find I just...don't want to.  Sucks! 

I know that this is a common problem for creative types and all types really...that ability to self-motivate.  Usually I'm pretty good at it, but I think this year February's got me beat down.  Or maybe it's just a convenient excuse. 

It's not just writing that's suffering either.  I literally never seem to want to do ANYTHING lately.  The last few weeks, even things that I should really be looking forward to are kind of a bother.  Any other human beings who've tried to reach out to me are finding themselves kept strictly at arms length.  It seems like I'm only grudgingly living my life nowadays...About all that I really want to do is sit on the couch and watch the Leafs or some cartoons or something.  It's dreadfully dull.

Oh well, soon that lemon yellow sun will start shining back down on my little corner of planet Earth...another 6 weeks and it's Easter and Spring and all that good stuff!  I know, I know, I go through this practically EVERY year, and it always gets better!  Remember last year? 

There was a DUCK!

For the Record...

 Is there such a thing as an upbeat February where enthusiasm and energy levels run high and great things are accomplished with an eager attitude and an optimistic heart? 

Uh...in my experience, no, no there is not. 

There is me trying to fight off a bad case of the winter blahs though...I keep doing things and trying to stay positive, not without some measure of success!  However, it's like everything I try to do takes twice the energy it'll take if I just wait until, oh, say, May...

Oh well...we can't operate on full blast ALL the time, can we?

In the spirit of doing things, I went out yesterday to a record store!  Actual vinyl albums, both new and used!  I forgot how much fun it is to look through albums and try to pick out the ones you want the most...so much more charming than just getting them on the 'net.  Some great stuff available on vinyl...it's really making a comeback!

Sadly, although the store also sells record players, the model that I am interested in was out of stock...so today I visited several other stores looking to buy an inexpensive turntable with an RCA output.  The good news is that I found several!  The bad news is that in EVERY case they only had the floor model available and thus I left every store I visited empty handed.  Looks like I'll have to wait a few more weeks for a restock...

However, I did get 2 new albums on vinyl (bringing my grand total to 3).  What albums?

The Doors - Morrison Hotel

Jimi Hendrix - Electric Ladyland

 And of course there's the first vinyl album I ever bought (also the first CD I ever bought, oddly enough also purchased before I owned a CD player):

Guns N' Roses - Appetite For Destruction

Now I just gotta get me that turntable...hopefully next week!

The Trial

While we're on the subject of albums I used to love, it's scary how much I still relate to the song "The Trial" by Pink Floyd...the climax, of course, to the album "The Wall".  The older I get the more it seems to apply.

Of course, the harder I try to "Tear down The Wall" the higher it seems to rise.

That's O.K.  In a lot of ways, I like it.  And in any case, I'll keep looking (for the door there in the wall where I came in).

What else have I got to do?

Incidentally, I've recently rediscovered my love of the Album as an art form.  I'm so sick of singles and "Shuffle All".  That's why I've decided that I'm going to buy a record player.  It's on the list!



Isn't it great how upbeat I am come February??