Meet the New Mood!

So I had a blog written up for this week and it was sort of interesting and whatnot but for some reason it just isn't fitting my mood today and thus instead I'm gonna just babble off of the top of my head for a bit.  Sorry about that.

It's been a sort of strange February for me this year.  Good, actually, but strange.  For one thing, I haven't been morbidly depressed all month!  I don't know if it's because the weather is less gloomy than in previous years, or if it's because I've been taking "New Mood" and it's helping my body produce serotonin at higher levels so I don't feel constantly depressed and insomniac or if it's a mental state of being.  If I had to guess, I'd say it's likely a combination of all 3.  Anyway it's nice to be happy in February for once, but it's strange.  Like I am waiting for the other shoe to drop.  I keep expecting to wake up really bummed out one day and just have that mood stick for the next month or two...isn't that weird?

So the dream/short story of the last couple weeks was interesting, eh?  I am no expert in dream interpretation but I have a few clues.  Each of the 3 people in the dream were at one point closer to me than anyone else on the planet.  Now they're all gone...that's pretty self-explanatory.  Kitchens are supposed to be significant of a need for nurturing and also a plan for change or transformation.  The living room of course is just a metaphor for my personal or internal space, and perhaps indicative of a feeling of invasion or things being out of place.  However, the ending of the dream really was what made it interesting.  Going from inside to outside is always significant of change...particularly when you are going through such a strange, guarded set of doors.  It's a rough and difficult transition...however once outside I had accomplished something, traumatic as it might seem.  At the end of the day, I guess that was just my subconscious letting these people go on to their lives and showing me that I'm ready to move on as well.  Good for me!  If only I knew the next steps!

Well, we'll make it up as we go along the same as I always have.  At least I feel like I'm getting, if not smarter, at least a little less naive....I suppose it's about time....I'm only 35 years old!

So anyway that's where I am at right now.  I feel rather blank-slate like.  Although I do still feel like I need a few months to recharge...if I feel this good right now and it's still only February, Spring should be interesting indeed!